The day before my manicure,
My nail broke off.
Fittngly enough, it was the middle finger.
July 2011
“…We can tell our children that school is important until we’re blue in the face, they’re not stupid. They see the loudest applause is for the kids on the field. They know teachers are paid poorly and don’t drive fancy cars. They know people plan Super Bowl parties but mock the National Spelling Bee. In other words, they see the hypocrisy, and we can’t expect society to correct itself. If we want to have any lasting influence on the way our kids approach education — the way future generations approach education — then we have to grab our pom-poms and paint our faces and celebrate intellectual curiosity with the same vigor we do their athletic achievements.”
—Why I’m raising my son to be a nerd - CNN.com (via loveyourchaos)
“You know, Cinderella didn’t have to take her dress off to win her Prince Charming. She had a romance without having any regrets along with it, and she didn’t lose anything she couldn’t get back the next day.”
—(via eletheowl)
“The doors we open and close each day decide the lives we live.”
—Flora Whittemore (via kari-shma)
“You write in order to change the world … if you alter, even by a millimeter, the way people look at reality, then you can change it.”
—James Baldwin (via rainier)
“I think the bottom line is that even though it may feel like the end of the world, it’s not, you might feel like you broke your back, but you’ll walk again. I believe that everything happens for a reason and even though you may not be able to see the big picture, that’s okay because it’s still being painted. Time and forgiveness can heal almost anything, and everything always comes back around full circle, sometimes it just takes a little more time than we expected.”
—David Cook (via iloveyourglasses)
June 2011
“Luck has a way of running out without the slightest warning. One minute you’ve got a lucky star watching over you and the next instant it’s done a bunk.”
— Haroun and the Sea of Stories (via quote-book)
“But poems are like dreams: in them you put what you don’t know you know.”
—Adrienne Rich, ‘When We Dead Awaken: Writing as Re-Vision’ On Lies, Secrets, and Silence (via thedaysarenotfullenough) (via libraryland)
“If I’d been someone else in a different world I’d have done something different, but I was myself and the world was the world, so I was silent.”
—Jonathan Safran Foer, Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close (via thoughtsdetained)
Today is the two year anniversary of my father's death.
But somehow it doesn’t feel any different.
An (unpopular) opinion
I don’t like Tim/Tyra(FNL). I think it’s too much determinism in one ship. Tyra really want to try to change her life to not end up like Mindy, marrying a Riggins and stuck in Dillon and besides Tim’s simple life, he really likes Lyla. Enough to do stupid things for her in second season, and go to that stupid dinner. And I’m suffering before they end up ):
It's much better to be alone and feel like a success, than to be in a relationship and feel like a failure, don't you think?
- Meredith, Grey’s Anatomy
Slow Dancing In A Burning Room
♥
Slow Dancing in a Burning Room - John Mayer
“Some people turn sad awfully young. No special reason, it seems, but they seem almost to be born that way. They bruise easier, tire faster, cry quicker, remember longer and, as I say, get sadder younger than anyone else in the world. I know, for I’m one of them.”
—Ray Bradbury Dandelion Wine (via 24ribs)
“Your heart is like a great river after a long spell of rain, spilling over its banks. All signposts that once stood on the ground are gone, inundated and carried away by that rush of water. And still the rain beats down on the surface of the river. Every time you see a flood like that on the news you tell yourself: That’s it. That’s my heart.”
—Kafka on the Shore, by Haruki Murakami (via cgjake)
“Sabr (patience) and shukr (gratitude) go together. When you’re not patient, you start complaining. And the fact that you’re complaining is the sign that you’re not grateful.”
—Brother Nouman Ali Khan (via merubinsu) (via subhanallah) (via ihavefaith)
“If he’s not calling you, it’s because you are not on his mind. If he creates expectations for you, and then doesn’t follow through on little things, he will do same for big things. Be aware of this and realize that he’s okay with disappointing you. Don’t be with someone who doesn’t do what they say they’re going to do. If he’s choosing not to make a simple effort that would put you at ease and bring harmony to a recurring fight, then he doesn’t respect your feelings and needs. “Busy” is another word for “asshole.” “Asshole” is another word for the guy you’re dating. You deserve a fcking phone call.”
—Greg Behrendt (via myquotelibrary)
“Be careful with alterations. If you pull the wrong thread, everything falls apart.”
—Samantha Jones (via mistercervantes)
“Saying ‘I love you’ is easy. What comes next? That’s a little scrunchier.”
—Sex And The City (via pam-darcy)
“How many of these things can one person survive?”
—Carrie Bradshaw (via i-started-nothing)
“I’m not drunk, I’m just sedated from my pain.”
—Carrie Brashaw (via iheartsexandthecity)
“I have never been able to be friends with an ex-boyfriend. I meet those couples who stay friends and I think, ‘How? How do they do that?’”
—Miranda Hobbes [Sex & the City - Season 2 Episode 18 - Ex and the City] (via justmeehyun)
"What happens in a certain place can stain your feelings for that location, just as ink can stain a white sheet. You can wash it, and wash it, and still never forget what has transpired - a word which here means 'happened, and made everybody sad'."
Lemony Snicket (Horseradish: Bitter Truths You Can’t Avoid)
"Unless you have been very, very lucky, you have undoubtedly experienced events in your life that have made you cry. So unless you have been very, very lucky, you know that a good, long session of weeping can often make you feel better, even if your circumstances have not changed one bit."
Lemony Snicket (Horseradish: Bitter Truths You Can’t Avoid)
“breakups are organic. you may be fine for 2 months and then have a bad night but it’ll be fine again when the light breaks the next morning. let it be what it is.”
—
(via getyourrunningshoeson)
“the thing we had at the end was withered and, in a way, that’s a blessing: there’s almost nothing to miss.”
—
scenes from my hood: in which i explain just a bit more.
(via getyourrunningshoeson)
“You wonder what he’s thinking when he shivers like that. What can you tell me, what could you possibly tell me? Sure, it’s good to feel things, and if it hurts, we’re doing it to ourselves, or so the saying goes, but there should be a different music here. There should be just one safe place in the world, I mean this world. People get hurt here. People fall down and stay down and I don’t like the way the song goes. You, the moon. You, the road. You, the little flowers by the side of the road. You keep singing along to that song I hate.”
—Road Music
Crush — Richard Siken. (via 27sandcastles)
Crush — Richard Siken. (via 27sandcastles)
“What do you really want?” I asked him impatiently. “You, I want you,” he replied. I wasn’t buying it. I turned to walk away, when he stopped me. “I want that part of you that gets excited when you hear the ice cream truck. The part that cries when old people die in movies. The part that cares much more than what she wears. The part where she can totally be herself. The part that when I look at her, I only see her. The part where she could never give up a stuffed animal, cause she’ll feel bad for it. The part where she wants me, too. That’s what I really want.”
—(via eletheowl)
“…i was in a very unhealthy, very imbalanced relationship for a long time in which i spent a lot of time and energy trying to make sure he was ok, we were ok, and not thinking very much, if at all, about whether or not i was happy, taken care of. i was accepting loads less than i needed in the name of love.
there is something very female about that. and it sucks.
so, if this is an answer: i began mourning the loss of the love the doctor and i had a year and a half ago. i held on because i loved him so much. but i also experienced so many disappointments and let-downs over those years that this breakup doesn’t feel sudden. i was lonely for a very long time. it feels like something i’ve been preparing for since we started going sideways a year and a half ago. it’s not that he didn’t love me. he did. i believe he loved me as well as he knew how. i also believe that with his work, and his singular devotion to it, he was able to sort of glide through our relationship, stay in it as the path of least resistance, even as it faded in front of us. why did i stay for so long? hope. and while i learned so much from this experience, and i may sound as if i am totally over it, i am processing the extent to which that hope injured me, kept me somewhere i shouldn’t have been. i don’t want to lose the belief that love is magical and can heal, but i also can’t spend another three years with someone who doesn’t love me the way i need to be loved. this is what i have to think about. that’s my job for now.” — (via getyourrunningshoeson)
there is something very female about that. and it sucks.
so, if this is an answer: i began mourning the loss of the love the doctor and i had a year and a half ago. i held on because i loved him so much. but i also experienced so many disappointments and let-downs over those years that this breakup doesn’t feel sudden. i was lonely for a very long time. it feels like something i’ve been preparing for since we started going sideways a year and a half ago. it’s not that he didn’t love me. he did. i believe he loved me as well as he knew how. i also believe that with his work, and his singular devotion to it, he was able to sort of glide through our relationship, stay in it as the path of least resistance, even as it faded in front of us. why did i stay for so long? hope. and while i learned so much from this experience, and i may sound as if i am totally over it, i am processing the extent to which that hope injured me, kept me somewhere i shouldn’t have been. i don’t want to lose the belief that love is magical and can heal, but i also can’t spend another three years with someone who doesn’t love me the way i need to be loved. this is what i have to think about. that’s my job for now.” — (via getyourrunningshoeson)
BLOGGING via TYPEWRITER.: Here's some half-assed, subjective advice I wrote in reply to an apsiring writer who emailed me today: →
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- Never write for no money unless it’s a really, really good opportunity. Then, write the shit out of it and make it count.
- Get on Elance. It’s how I get most of my writing gigs. It gets you in the habit of writing for money, which becomes self-fulfilling after a while. Low-ball…
shall we dance?: I do not understand why Nicholas Sparks is famous. →
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Gonna start a novel, like right the fuck now. It will be called
Fragile Spine Valentine
Picture it:
- A woman is in a wheelchair, she is blind and half deaf.
- A dude is like a lifeguard or some shit, shallow with no brains.
(NOT to be played by Channing…
hahaha this made me laugh
“‘You were in paradise, but you didn’t recognise it. It’s the same with most people in this world; they seek suffering in the most joyous of places because they think they are unworthy of happiness.’”
—The Devil and Miss Prym, Paulo Coelho (via huggingbooks)
Sometimes you do the right thing. And it hurts. But it was still the right thing. And even later, you’re wishing you’d done something else. But it was still the right thing. And things didn’t turn out how you’d hoped. It was still the right thing.
“And then I felt sad because I realized that once people are broken in certain ways, they can’t ever be fixed, and this is something nobody ever tells you when you are young and it never fails to surprise you as you grow older as you see the people in your life break one by one. You wonder when your turn is going to be, or if it’s already happened.”
—Douglas Coupland (via kari-shma)
“I’ve been rereading your story. I think it’s about me in a way that might not be flattering, but that’s okay. We dream and dream of being seen as we really are and then finally someone looks at us and sees us truly and we fail to measure up… Sometimes you get so close to someone you end up on the other side of them.”
—(via abigailizquierdo)
“I am not the happiest person. In fact, in the battle between joy and misery, I’d say the latter often seems to prevail. I don’t like this, and every day I refuse, for the eighty millionth time, to put up with another minute of it.”
—Elizabeth Wurtzel, The Secret of Life (via rantswithgrace)
"Girls: this episode & Brooke's journey makes me think of an important life lesson; never settle. Never accept less than what you deserve. Hold out for a partner in life who treats you like gold, believes in you on good days & on bad days, & who is your best friend. Hold out for the guy who'll love you like no one ever has before. You're worth it."
-Sophia Bush
