At the time when he thought he was losing you, he asked if you remembered how you two used to sleep, skin beside skin, your hand reaching for his and holding it against the center of your chest, hoping he would always feel what you felt underneath it all, and just know he would always be better than the rest.
You said you did. But that was so long ago.. and now, things are just different.
Haruki Murakami, Kafka on the Shore
is larger than the usual romantic love. It’s like a religion. It’s
terrifying. No one
will ever want to sleep with you.” —Litany in Which Certain Things Are Crossed Out, by Richard Siken (via xyztequals0000)
Pep Talk: You’re understanding of the past and uncommitted to the future. Anything could happen in the present and you’re as prepared as anybody. Bring it, life.
Today remind yourself: I’m open.
So I began to think maybe it was true that when you were married and had children it was like being brainwashed, and afterward you went about as numb as a slave in some private, totalitarian state.
You leave the same impression
Of something beautiful, but annihilating.” —Sylvia Plath (via aprilisover)
I dashed the water from my eyes.
I was panting, as after a strenuous exertion, but floating, without effort.
I dived, and dived again, and each time popped up like a cork.
The gray rock mocked me, bobbing on the water easy as a lifebuoy.
I knew when I was beaten.
I turned back.” —
- Sylvia Plath, The Bell Jar (page 161)
- Pacey: Well, I should probably just start first, that you, Josephine Potter, have just wrecked me. In the best possible way, you have absolutely wrecked me. Because you see, I fell in love with you, knowing that there was never any possibility of being with you. Knowing full well that a sizeable chunk of your heart would always be wrapped up in our friend, Dawson. And that much was actually okay with me. Right up to the point that you chose me. Cause then you just turned everything on it’s head. And I got everything that I wanted, and from that day forward, I’ve just been a wreck.
- Joey: Why?
- Pacey: Because, now all I can do is just wait for the other shoe to drop. You know, just wait for you to realize what a big mistake you’ve made. Wait for you to realize that I’m just going to be a big disappointment. And just wait for you to realize that Dawson is the guy that you want to be with.
Here when I say “I never want to be without you,”
somewhere else I am saying
“I never want to be without you again.” And when I touch you
in each of the places we meet
in all of the lives we are, it’s with hands that are dying
When I don’t touch you it’s a mistake in any life,
in each place and forever.