“I felt very still and very empty, the way the eye of a tornado must feel, moving dully along in the middle of the surrounding hullabaloo.”
— sylvia plath, the bell jar
September 2009
“there’s a point in life when you get tired of chasing everyone and trying to fix everything, but it’s not giving up. It’s realizing that you don’t need certain people and their crap.”
—I read this somewhere, I forget. (via saabmagalona) (via disintegrate) (via lovebot)
“And this is love: two souls that freely meet, and have no need of proving anything.”
—Paula Reingold (via daphneemarie)
“It’s not adorable to pretend like you’re not adorable.”
—Mad Men (via tvquotes)
Today, I finally found out that someone had stolen my debit card and maxed it out. The good news? Whoever it was forgot to change the address on the card, so everything they bought online has been shipped to me. The bad news? I’ve received 16 snuggies so far, and I’m still counting. FML
“Do you ever get that feeling where you don’t want to talk to anybody? You don’t want to smile and you don’t want to fake being happy but at the same time you don’t know exactly what’s wrong either, there isn’t a way to explain it to someone who doesn’t already understand. If you could want anything in the world it would be to be alone. People have stopped being comforting and being alone never was. At least when you’re alone no one constantly asks you what’s wrong and there isn’t anyone who won’t take “I don’t know” for an answer. You feel the way you do just because. You hope the feeling will pass soon and that you will be able to be yourself again, but until then all you can do is wait.”
—(via eletheowl) (via thealcoholtakeshold) (via brokenmachine) (via coldhearted) (via breathsoftruth) (via lovebot) (via crazybeautiful)
“I learned to love myself, because I sleep with myself every night and I wake up with myself every morning, and if I don’t like myself, there’s no reason to even live the life. I love the way I look. I’m fine with it. And if my body changes, I’ll be fine with that.”
—Gabourey Sidibe (via NYMag) (via heyfatchick) (via fuckyeahchubbygirls) (via loveyourchaos)
“It’s when I’m standing six feet away from you and not being able to find the words to tell you how much I love you and how much I miss you that I want to just scream to the whole room that I’m still in love with you. It’s when I’m sitting alone with the phone in my hand dialing your number and hanging up that I would trade a thousand tomorrows for just one yesterday. Then I could just call you to tell you goodnight. It’s when I am really sad about something and need someone to talk to that I realize you’re the only one who really knew me at all. It’s when I cry myself to sleep at night and it hits me how much I would give to hold you at that very moment. It’s when I think about you that I realize no one else in the world is meant for me.”
—james frey a million little pieces
“It’s great, isn’t it? When you feel so strongly for someone and it’s not just about the sex, it is… it’s true.”
—Mark Sloan (via fuckyeahgreysmcnatomy)
“According to Elizabeth Kubler Ross, when we are dying or have suffered through a catastrophic loss we all go through 5 distinct stages of grief. We go in to denial because the loss is so unthinkable we can’t imagine its true. We become angry with everyone, angry with survivors, angry with ourselves. Then we bargain. We beg, we plead, we offer everything we have, we offer up our souls in exchange for just one more day. When the bargaining has failed and the anger is too hard to maintain, we fall in to depression, despair, until finally we have to accept that we have done everything we can, we let go. We let go, and move into acceptance.”
—Meredith Grey (via fuckyeahgreysmcnatomy)
“The dictionary defines grief as keen mental suffering or distress over affliction or loss; sharp sorrow; painful regret. As surgeons, as scientists, we’re taught to learn from and rely on books, on definitions, on definitives. But in life, strict definitions rarely apply. In life, grief can look like a lot of things that bear little resemblance to sharp sorrow.”
—Meredith Grey (via fuckyeahgreysmcnatomy)
“The friend who can be silent with us in a moment of despair or confusion, who can stay with us in an hour of grief and bereavement, who can tolerate not knowing, not curing, not healing and face with us the reality of our powerlessness, that is a friend who cares.”
—Meredith Grey (via fuckyeahgreysmcnatomy)
“Everytime I look at you… I feel better. It shocks me. It knocks my wind out, but it’s true. I don’t have to have sex with you, I’d be happy just look at you from across the room. And even that, anything, any piece of you. And, hopefully, all of you…that’d be the best thing. Because I love you .”
—George O’Malley (via fuckyeahgreysmcnatomy)
“I felt, that night, on that stage, under that skull, incredibly close to everything in the universe, but also extremely alone. I wondered, for the first time in my life, if life was worth all the work it took to live. What exactly made it worth it? What’s so horrible about being dead forever, and not feeling anything, and not even dreaming? What’s so great about feeling and dreaming?”
—Oskar Schell (via loveyourchaos)
"You were the strongest person I knew and now you're so broken. I feel like someone stole you away."
I’m sorry, I promise I’ll be better.
“I guess a big part of growing up is dealing with regret. Swallowing your pride. There are some things in life you can’t go back & change, no matter how much you want to. I think that day I was finally forced to grow up, to leave the past behind, for one final time.”
—(via gildedbutterflies-)
“No matter how much you’ve done, or how successful you’ve been, there’s always more to do, more to learn, more to achieve.”
—Barack Obama, Commencement Address at Arizona State University 5/13/09 (via aestivate) (via loveyourchaos)
“I can’t lose you. I won’t survive. And that’s your fault. You made me love you. You made me let you in.”
—Alex Karev, Grey’s Anatomy, Season 6, Episode 2 (via xuanddo) (via fuckyeahgreysanatomy) (via agirlandherdog) (via tvquotes) (via breathsoftruth) (via lovebot) (via hiiikatelyn) (via eletheowl)
“Sometimes I imagined stitching all of our little touches together. How many hundreds of thousands of fingers brushing against each other does it take to make love? Why does anyone ever make love?”
—Jonathan Safran Foer (via loveyourchaos)
"I am not sad, he would repeat to himself over and over, I am not sad. As if he might one day convince himself. Or fool himself. Or convince others -- The only thing worse than being sad is for others to know that you are sad."
(via loveyourchaos)
“You don’t let people in, its hard for you and once you do you don’t want to let them go and when they fuck up you’re like why did you do that to me? I gave you my feelings. I did everything for you, and you screwed me over.”
—— audrina patridge (via lolofosho)
“I don’t think you ever stop giving. I really don’t. I think it’s an on-going process. And it’s not just about being able to write a check. It’s being able to touch somebody’s life.”
—Oprah Winfrey (via littlemiss)
Less than lovers, more than friends.
(via chocolate-cigarettes)
“But at the end of the day, I just want someone I can depend on, someone who won’t change every other second… someone who feels like home.”
—(via kimberlyjane)
Buffy The Vampire Slayer, 3x12 Helpless
- Angel: I watched you. I saw you called. It was a bright afternoon out in front of your school. You walked down the steps and I loved you.
- Buffy: Why?
- Angel: Because I could see your heart. You held it before you for everyone to see and I worried that it would be bruised or torn. More than anything in my life, I wanted to keep it safe. To warm it with my own.
You deserve to be with somebody who makes you happy; somebody who doesn’t complicate your life, somebody who won’t hurt you.
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yes i do, and it’s not
you. thank you for the truth, it makes everything so much easier, and i can now move forward and erase you from my life.
Top 10 Guys You Wanna Play 7 Minutes In Heaven With.
1. Eli fucking Roth.
2. Zachary Gilford
3. Christopher Pine.
4. Paul Wesley.
5. Bradley Cooper.
6. Ryan Gosling.
7. Ryan Reynolds.
8. Benjamin McKenzie
9. Adam Brody.
10. Jared Padalecki.
“Do I force a confrontation or do I just continue to be whiny and passive-aggressive until she realizes what a catch I am?”
—Seth Cohen (The O.C. 1x26 “The Strip”) (via fuckyeahschwartzverse)
gossip girl 1x04 "bad news blair"
- Rufus: I dated a girl like Serena once. Actually, a lot like Serena. And girls like that might be challenging. That's true. And they're complicated, and enigmatic. And usually worth it. And the only way you know for sure is to jump it with both feet.
- Dan: What happened with you?
- Rufus: I swam for a while. Until I drowned.
- Dan: Oh. Well thanks, Dad. That's a great story.
“Even though I kinda knew we were a lie, it was like a pain reliever. I mean the pain was still there, but I didn’t feel it for awhile.”
—One Tree Hill (via thisloveisdifficult)
“If your idea of a role model is somebody who’s gonna preach to your kids that sex before marriage is wrong and cursing is wrong and women should be this and that, then I’m not a role model. But if you want your girls to feel strong and intelligent and be outspoken and to fight for what they think is right, then I want to be that type of role model, yeah.”
—Megan Fox (via gildedbutterflies-)
“Take all the time you need to heal emotionally. Moving on doesn’t take a day; it takes lots of little steps to be able to break free of your broken self.”
—(via eletheowl)
“Most girls say they want a fairy tale, but you taught me that, that’s not really what I want. I want someone who will make fun of me & laugh at my jokes even if they aren’t funny; someone who wrestles with me & doesn’t let me win just cause im a girl. Yeah, watching the sun go down at the beach would be nice, but playing soccer with you would be so much better.”
—(via gildedbutterflies-)
Listen
Colbie Calliet | Circles
I´m free from the circle
there´ll be no regrets this time
“No pill can help me deal with the problem of not wanting to take pills; likewise, no amount of psychotherapy alone can prevent my manias and depressions. I need both. It is an odd thing, owing life to pills, one’s own quirks and tenacities, and this unique, strange, and ultimately profound relationship called psychotherapy.”
—Kay Redfield Jamison, An Unquiet Mind: A Memoir of Moods and Madness (via psychotherapy)
“And now I know why it didn’t work out between us then; it was too soon. We weren’t ready for that leap into “something more” and it wouldn’t have meant as much as it does now.”
—(via gildedbutterflies-)
Things I Wish Someone Had Told Me:
There are opportunities and options everywhere. With time, you’ll learn where to look high and low for them, and sometimes they’ll even plop themselves right in your lap. Take part in the ones that peak your interest, no matter how outlandish they may be.
Try as many new things as you possibly can. Run for an executive board position in your favorite club, get out of your comfort zone. If you don’t succeed, keep in mind you have three more years to try again and at least you were brave enough to start early.
Tuition costs actually do matter. Don’t listen to the ones that say it doesn’t. Don’t let that stop you from applying though. Let your Financial Aid decide.
If you had a bad day, just say good night and turn the light off. Problems don’t seem so beastly in morning light.
“I don’t know if this is going to work. We’re two different people. We’re just too different. And I mean I’m not saying I don’t want it to. I would give anything to have a chance, but I don’t think we’ll ever get one because we’re living two different worlds.”
—(via eletheowl) (via lovelyjune)
- Spongebob: What do you usually do when I'm gone?
- Patrick: Wait for you to come back.
